I really learned a lot from just one sleepover with an awesome girl friend of mine. I learned that NOTHING is more important than friendship and yourself. Guys are trash and usually pathetic, and if I ever got split up and on my own, I would be able to handle it amazingly on my own. I have awesome ladies in my life, and I plan to have nothing more than pure happiness in my life. I need another ladies’ night NOW. haha. :)
My sister has it SO damn easy with making girl friends. Throughout childhood to this very day, she always attracted all the girls around to be her best friends. For me, I always got picked on. I always was fucked around with and I was never held true by a girl friend. I never experienced a girl that didn’t use me or a girl who wanted to be more of MY friend than my sister’s friend.
Like Mandy (my sister) met a girl who she swears is some godsent from above, and it’s like I decided that I would move on and find my own girl friends. A girl from my past recently came back into my life, and I took the initiative to hang out with her and make a best friend out of her. I planned a photo shoot and slumber party with her this weekend, and for once, I was excited to hang around a girl for my own for a change. I told her about my excitement for this weekend, and she said that she hopes Mandy will be home to hang out too with us. Like WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? Mandy gets to shower in friendship and girl friends, but for me, I get to sit around alone, tagging along like I apparently used to as a kid.
I just wish there was one girl that would have just interest in hanging out with me. Whether talking about makeup, fashion, or video games. We can have slumber parties together and have a good time and just live in the moment together. All I wanted was a girl to relate to, who would also bring me back to sanity.
I wish I wasn’t that tag along girl who can’t make a friend who is like me at all. :(